It's insane. I can't enjoy holidays or free time because I don't know what to do with myself. I'm not exactly sure how to function like a normal person. Books don't do it for me in the long run - I get restless and bored.
I can't just watch tv/movies without getting bored. I have to constantly be bombarded with stimuli.
HEADACHE, you say? Yeah, baby. Not even ibuprofen helps get rid of it.
Online games, baking, art, reorganising the bookshelf ... all lost on me, with the aid of carpal tunnel, pins and needles, general lethargy and BOREDOM.
Of course, there's also this thing with being unable to relax or just stay relaxed when I do get to that stage. ARGH.
Did ask the maternal if I could just take some sort of muscle relaxant, but she said they're addictive. Plus I'd always be afraid of losing control of all muscular components, i.e. bladder. Eurgh.
Five days until uni starts again. Wooh for Honours! Except I haven't started any research or reading AT ALL yet, and ok, the supervisor said that'd be okay too. But still. I bet I'm the only one who turns up with a carte blanche. And I'm pretty sure most of the others worked at their labs all summer, anyway.
Also, this no-carbs business is killing me. I NEED SOLID FOOD. NOW. It had better be worth it.
Anway.
Peace and love,
S.
I used to suffer from the same kind of crazy boredom. The constant need to have something to occupy my mind. I have found my passion and I feel relaxed and fulfilled. I am excited to get up every day and learn more.
ReplyDeleteLook into your heart and you will find your passion, maybe not right away, but keep trying. Follow the flow of you interests and see where they take you. Don't worry if it isn't what you thought it would be or what others would accept, it is about living your own life as you see fit. :)