One, two, WHALE!!

I don't really know what I want from life.

Well, I do, but there are so many things. Then again, I don't know what. Part of me just wants to be left alone so I can read the paper, but can you do this forever, without getting lonely or bored?


I spent a good portion of my single-digit years in tears due to boredom. Then I discovered books - like, PROPERLY discovered them, and that kept me happy for a while. I can't sit still long enough to read now, plus I get through books and then I'm left wondering what to do next. 


Being bored also depresses me. I stumble instead of bounce when I walk. I know it's not normal to bounce when you walk, but I can't help it when I'm happy. Today was not one of these days - not because anything happened, more that NOTHING happened and I'm bored and a bit lonely and heaps tired and massively BORED and a bit stressed. Having conclusively convinced everyone of my incapacity to function as an intelligent person, I don't really know what else to do with myself all day. Sitting around reading and summarising articles for hours on end is doing my head in.


POSITIVE THINKING, I have found, does help if you can get into the right frame of mind, but not if you just keep telling yourself to think positive but can't think at all, let alone about positive things.

Still, nothing to be done but to think happy thoughts. 

Peace and love,

S.