More dreams.

Just thought you'd all like to know what I've been dreaming about. Saturday was a cousin's birthday, used it as the perfect excuse to binge on cake. Am pretty sure this contributed to the many and odd dreams I had that night. This included one with my dad and I in the bathroom, him helping me shave my beard and them me panicking because I had hair on my neck. Then I dreamed that I posted that I'd dreamed this on facebook. 


I am having trouble deciding whether I'm going to be depressed this year and just not worry about the outcomes, or to try really, really hard. I know what I want, kind of, and I know what I'd like as a back-up, but neither of these is likely to happen. So I don't really have a plan or back-up plan. I think I'm more worried about the fact that I'm not worried. Or maybe I am worried, and this is how I'm channelling it? I don't really know.


Anyway, it's not important. The important thing is that my cousins from the US are here for a while, and I get to see them and IT IS AWESOME. If all else fails I will just have to focus on organising children's birthday parties. And travel the world. And farm pomegranates. May be waitressing? Haha, what a waste of a science degress that would be!


We got our lit review marks a few days ago, I thought I'd done quite well. But my supervisor didn't seem too enthused. I think he knew the markers were being really soft. Ah well, at least I can't disappoint him, now that he has learned not to expect anything great of me! The other guy has been trying to be nice to me and it weirds me out. 


Haha there's this guy here who is CONSTANTLY smoking and nearly always dresses like a gangsta (but no bling). A few weeks ago I saw him with an asthma puffer in one hand and a pack of cigarettes in the other. Silly boy. 

Anyhow, I've realised that my main problem is the fact that I get bored, easily and all the time. I don't do well at 'easy' things because I can't be bothered putting in the effort for something so small - because if I have to put effort in, it's going to be everything, or nothing. I don't necessarily do well at the harder things, but at least I'm happier.

So, again, I have nothing useful or profound to say. But that's okay, because I'm in a fairly good mood. I love my family and my friends. I'm pretty sure I'm the favourite grandchild as well as the favourite sister and cousin. Only thing left is to be the favourite aunt, but that's a while off. And then I can conquer the rest of the world with my awesomeness.


I would like to leave you with a little bit of awesomeness: 

http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b011k12c/Rhod_Gilbert_04_06_2011/


 (Rhod Gilbert Show, from BBC Radio Wales. Enjoy!)

Peace and love,

S.